My Dear Grandmother ,please help me....

The day you went away , im so hurt and i don't know to reason why .Have i done something wrong ? My blame is love you by true love? so i'll alway unlearn it,even i'll be carry it all my life and i won't award my blame for you again....you know , im so hurt that the day you went away , i waiting for you attack tears falling in the everynight , My friend said you're not worth enough to me do it ,yeah....she's exactly but she don't know i must be overcome everything ,school , friends , job , family  ,do you know you're so egoistic ?at least to me .
If now i have to overcome this hurt with my broken heart , i really upset ....i wonderful why am i do it , i dont know do you love me by true love? i just only know i love you ....although my pride dont allow  me do it.
My Dear Grandmother , i'd forlorned , do you unhurt at paradise ?i miss you , and i miss him too , what must i do ? im so disappointed , please help me ,my dear ,let carry him close to me now , i losed you in my regret , i don't wanna lose him , an unhurt love . Please help me , my dear grandmother , and i love you too