Made it through the first day without you

Meetings going on and on, back to back, from 10am til now has not stopped me from thinking about you. We've been living together for 4years10 months and suddenly become strangers after a night, just because of a simple truth: you've never loved me.
Before having kid, you went out and stay at your friend places every time we have a debate. And now with T, you brought him back to VN to live your own life. You enjoy your live life with other people around and ask me for the generousness. I reluctantly accepted hoping for a brighter days coming. But with you, my scarification is taken for granted and that would never be enough. All I got back for my endless try is your unhappiness, complaining and demanding.
And it hurts badly when you tell me you don't want to have any more kid with me. It must not be me, I was someone else when I sucked all that words up and still trying to the family. Unfortunately you've never realized how unreasonable you are which makes things worse. Till now, I can't stand it anymore, not any more.
Yes, we are no longer sharing the same road, which we might never did.
Yes, you no longer wants to be by my side.
And yes, I did love you so much. I still do, yet it must be over since that's only my long lived illusion. Your love for me had dead for long.