My own thoughts.....<3

 I still love you, missing you as I always do since we've been together until this present time.  However, I will enjoy myself to live happily and don't get into affliction and make you angry or sad anymore; because during this time you can take your time to think about our situation.  Things always happened for a reason, you know!  I'm curious about what is that REASON.  For me, I don't know that this time will it be a determination of our relationship?!?! I'm so confused about everything you've said, you've promised me.  Do you know that my heart seems like fall into pieces when you said that ever since our relationship started you have never believe in me.  I couldn't stand it but I don't know why I still can't ignore you for a long time.  I just feel bad about myself right now, you wouldn't know!  Our relationship is hard to survive, I know that but I said you don't believe in me so then you don't believe in this relationship will be strong anymore.  I hate you, do you know that!!!!!!!  I really want to try to make this relationship to be stronger and to be a miracle.  I feel extremely sad when I don't have you by my side and hug me when I needed you.  How can I kiss you whenever I wanted to?  Who will wipe my tears when I cry? I dislike how half of the globe separated us!!!!!  I guess you would feel the same way as I am.   I know you worry about me, worry that I might be drown into temptation of any other guys and so I do too.  I don't know but sometimes I feel that you're someone that I have been waiting for, but sometimes I feel that you're just someone would went through my life quickly as "easy come, easy go".  Nevertheless, this love cannot define as easy come because we've been built it over time since we were friends.  You said you don't feel safe, and I feel the same way.  I don't force you to hold on to this relationship and just make it worse, you know, so I hope you think about this seriously and carefully.  Please refresh your mind so you will not make a choice you don't want to make and then regret about it.  Take care, my love! <3